Being in France

Much changes, much movements. To pursue deeper
inner connection I went to Belgium to help my
friend Lander and his mom Dina. Dina just started
to build spiritual community in the middle of France,
not far from Tours. After some work in Bruges I landed
in France where I am supporting her in this new flowering
of consciousness. And in the same time I am being supported
on the way. It is very quiet here, there is also great feeling of
space. I am working in the kitchen and in the garden. From
the two I prefer garden but kitchen work has more to do with
people and that is good part of it :)

This sunday Dina gives course of awareness in the movement
for people, it will take about 5 days. Perhaps I will be able to
write some more about it in the next postcard :)


lots of Love

Tensions in the Body

 Hi :)

   Recently I read Alexander Lowen's book "Love,

Sex and the Heart". Since I head some heart problems

 already in childhood it was interesting topic

 for me. He is analyzing there conection between

emotional, sexual life and condition of your heart.

Most interesting was observation that tensions are

 usually in the area of the back, neck, jaw and the

 chest. When it is in the area of the back and arms

 together with jaw - that is unexpressed agression.

 He calls it "monkey on your back". Advises some

 specific exercises to reliese the tension from that

 area. Punching the pillow or rolled blanket seems to

 work good. What I found also helpful is rolling

 blanket and putting it under my chest then lying

 on the yoga mat on the floor, that is almost like

 "fish position" in yoga but a bit more gentle. He is

 saying that especially man have problem with

 learning to cry and that crying is the best cure.

 Sometimes it takes even years to learn that because

 we have been so conditioned to belive it is not

 courageous or sign of weakness. With tension in

 the jaw I try to bite some material and that also

 helps to relax that area. He says that is somebody

 has tension in the belly then kicking the materace

 might help. And everywhere there he advices deep,

 relaxed breathing. It took him few years to learn

 crying, my experience with meditation and other

 inner practices is the same that embodiment of

 realization takes time and deep wounds need

 gentleness and patience to be healed. I don't agree with

 his focus on sexuality however there were some

 interesting observations which definitely give some

 light on that topic. To end this article I give a little poem

 I wrote yeterday:

 "Emblems of Love"

 Little letters, drops sleaping by

 Slight coherence, forms emerging

 Quietude of the evening, sleepy rain

 Coldness and warmth mingling between

 Each other...like two birds in the sky.

 Wind and the sun catching the meaning

 Of their conversation. Listen carefuly. Gently.

 

  Flowers appear like from a dream.

 Divinity and the roses. White and pink.

 Red and sacred. Waterfalls...

 Whispering in far corner of our hearts.

 Green leaves fill you with invisible bounty.

 Touching your legs and lips. Breath deeper.

 Be quiet. Time seems only to beat. But in where

 Is his circling? Close your eyes...open them.

 Colors play like in dance. Let them do as they will.

 The trill of the morning. Secrecy of night. Emblems

 of love on white paper. Can you write? Do you still

 listen?

     take Care :) 

The Process

 What is happening now? Well, it is kind of finding safe

 balance between the flow of Energy and ability to deal

 with its influences. This morning I had 20 minutes of

 meditation and feel good. However there were few

 days when I had two meditation sessions during

 the day ( 20 and 15 minutes ) and that was close to

 being too much, like I had lots of stuff in the body

 during the night time and couldn't sleep. Right now

 one session in the morning seems to be enought and

 the flow is bearable. When I listen to Gangaji or Adya

 or anybody else in that box, that makes the system

 very sensitive and is in itself sort of intense meditation.

 So, the word I am using here  relates to the sitting

 meditation, lets say with closed eyes althought

 sometimes I sing and that can be with eyes closed

 or not. When you start meditation practice after some

 time you can't avoid it, it is like water flowing in a

 stream. So, during the day when I don't sit the process

 is going on, I feel that Energy in the body moving to

 different places. Of course whan mind is really busy

 with something external than for short period there

 might not be the awareness of inner body. But is not

 like this that you can stop Life, stop movement of life

 force inside and outside, some might consider suicide

 for that matter but that is still illusion that you are

 doing it. What else "I am doing" during the day?

 Recently, since this body become very sensitive to

 computer I am reading some more books (now it is some

 book by Victor Hugo) and listening to music appart from

 walking outside, taking care for dog and cats, washing

 dishes, starting the fire in the stove. We use wood now,

 a bit bought from one man from Pcim and a bit from

 forest itself. I enjoyed a lot new green leaves on the

 plants, spring is coming with wonderful force and

 being lucky to wake up early this morning could see

 amazing sun rising from the east of our house, the

 sun came to cover the branches and image was one

 of wonder and astonishment. Katie says that waking

 up is like loosing the moon but I like them both :)

 Heat of the sun and coolness of the moon, on the

 evening Pcim's sky you can see droplets of stars

 stirring its imagination and their sister moon

 glimpsing the deepest mystery. "Let love be one"

 she sings yawning before sleep. And I put my head

 to the pillow feeling its soft and warm embrace.

 Lets fall into mySelf. Deep into the lake of unknown

 where the limit is the limitless expanssion and the

 sky is the sea of ecstatic beauty.

       lots of love