Today I started to do some work with "the work". And as Katie suggest it is the best to put it on paper because mind is very quick and will try again and again escape from inquiry. There were other thoughts, but this one with money seems to be so obviuous and so popular in western world that I had to try it again. Somehow I know, that I don't need more money, but on the other hand I live with my parents and they put a little pressure that I should make money to give my share to the bills. Seems quite obvious, isn't it? So, I did pursue this direction of inquiry, to find out what are deeper belives behind it and if it will have significance for me. The first question was answered in positive, second (are you absolutely sure about it?) not, maybe I can be sure in 98%, but not absolutely. And here is the space, I found that this belief creates tension and sense of never making it, sense of not being fulfilled and not being where you are. So, your peace and hapiness is in the future, when you will reach your goal, in this case - more money. It is pretty frustrating way to live.Who whould I be without this thought? Well, this is really amazing question, I found out that I don't know. For sure I will be more here and now, for sure there is unknown, for sure there is more happiness now. In this case turnaround is righter obvious:"I don't need more money". There was very little second when I felt intense joy, but that was so tiny that you might have tendency to abolish all this business. I did similar inquiry with:"I need to find job", because it is very similar to the first one, not identical, but very similar. Something very interesting surfaced, I am not even sure in which place exactly, but that I hold on to those thoughts because I am afraid of my father, afraid of his agression. This was a big surprise. We will see what comes next.
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