The Process

 What is happening now? Well, it is kind of finding safe

 balance between the flow of Energy and ability to deal

 with its influences. This morning I had 20 minutes of

 meditation and feel good. However there were few

 days when I had two meditation sessions during

 the day ( 20 and 15 minutes ) and that was close to

 being too much, like I had lots of stuff in the body

 during the night time and couldn't sleep. Right now

 one session in the morning seems to be enought and

 the flow is bearable. When I listen to Gangaji or Adya

 or anybody else in that box, that makes the system

 very sensitive and is in itself sort of intense meditation.

 So, the word I am using here  relates to the sitting

 meditation, lets say with closed eyes althought

 sometimes I sing and that can be with eyes closed

 or not. When you start meditation practice after some

 time you can't avoid it, it is like water flowing in a

 stream. So, during the day when I don't sit the process

 is going on, I feel that Energy in the body moving to

 different places. Of course whan mind is really busy

 with something external than for short period there

 might not be the awareness of inner body. But is not

 like this that you can stop Life, stop movement of life

 force inside and outside, some might consider suicide

 for that matter but that is still illusion that you are

 doing it. What else "I am doing" during the day?

 Recently, since this body become very sensitive to

 computer I am reading some more books (now it is some

 book by Victor Hugo) and listening to music appart from

 walking outside, taking care for dog and cats, washing

 dishes, starting the fire in the stove. We use wood now,

 a bit bought from one man from Pcim and a bit from

 forest itself. I enjoyed a lot new green leaves on the

 plants, spring is coming with wonderful force and

 being lucky to wake up early this morning could see

 amazing sun rising from the east of our house, the

 sun came to cover the branches and image was one

 of wonder and astonishment. Katie says that waking

 up is like loosing the moon but I like them both :)

 Heat of the sun and coolness of the moon, on the

 evening Pcim's sky you can see droplets of stars

 stirring its imagination and their sister moon

 glimpsing the deepest mystery. "Let love be one"

 she sings yawning before sleep. And I put my head

 to the pillow feeling its soft and warm embrace.

 Lets fall into mySelf. Deep into the lake of unknown

 where the limit is the limitless expanssion and the

 sky is the sea of ecstatic beauty.

       lots of love